Erika Kirk Says ‘There Is No Linear Blueprint for Grief’ One Month After Losing Husband Charlie Kirk

Erika Kirk is working through the pain of losing her husband, Charlie Kirk.

On Friday, October 10, the former Miss Arizona winner, 36, took to Instagram to post a video honoring the Turning Point USA founder. In her caption, Erika detailed how she’s coping with Charlie’s death one month after he was shot and killed while speaking at Utah Valley University on Wednesday, September 10.

“There is no linear blueprint for grief. One day you’re collapsed on the floor crying out the name Jesus in between labored breaths,” she explained. “The next you’re playing with your children in the living room, surrounded by family photos, and feeling a rush of something you can only attempt to define as divinely planted and bittersweet joy as a smile breaks through on your face.”

“They say time heals. But love doesn’t ask to be healed. Love asks to be remembered,” Erika, who shares two young children with the late political figure, penned. “It’s humbling to realize that this magnitude of suffering didn’t steal my love for my husband. It amplified it. It crystallized it.“

“I carry my Charlie in every breath, in every ache, and in every quiet act of day to day living as I attempt to relearn what that rhythm will be,” she continued. “And what I’ve realized through these past 30 days is the greater the suffering, the purer the love. And I have never loved him more than I do now.”

As the National Enquirer previously reported, during Charlie’s memorial service last month, Erika gave forgiveness to Tyler Robinson, 22,  the man who was arrested and charged with Charlie’s murder.

“That man, that young man … I forgive him,” Erika tearfully admitted to the crowd at State Farm Stadium in Glendale, Arizona. “I forgive him because it was what Christ did and is what Charlie would do.”